Wimp Cuckold

We had a long talk in bed last night (I had managed to pursuade her to return from the spare room on Tuesday night and lay next to me after four nights without her). I thought as she lay there that I would try to please her and I gently stroked her butt and thighs as she lay facing away from me. This was an advance on Tuesday night where we had just cuddled and slept. However, when I tried to turn her over onto her back and said I wanted to touch her clit she got up and started to leave the room. All I had wanted to do was give her some pleasure but she said she had feared this would happen when she agreed to join me in bed again the previous night. In her head "our relationship is no longer valid" (to quote a text she sent me on Monday). She had already made the break and was now wondering how to support her children in the home or how she would be able to sell and move house in the current economic climate. She had managed to be polite and civil to me during the weekend and each evening at home but had drawn the line on any intimacy. It took me a long time and much pleading for me to pursuade her to return beside me in bed last night, so I could cuddle her and we could talk.

She did not hold back. She said that I was not the man she met, that I had changed and that she was not turned on by wimps. We tried not to mention her Bull after she said he should be 'set aside' and was not to become part of the discussion. It was clear in her head that she wants our 10 year relationship to end and she did not want to waste another decade on me. She did not like me looking at porn on this computer, mocked me by asking me if I had been tidying up my porn folders all day Saturday (actually I was keeping a low profile and suffering from a huge hangover, although I did confess to looking at porn sometimes during the day). She basically thinks that I do not respect her and she told me I called her a 'whore' on Friday night, as well as a 'slut'. Both of which I deeply regret saying.

The lingering memory I have of last night's difficult conversation is that she is no longer turned on by me in my present 'wimp' status and that she seemed very reluctant to talk about her Bull, let alone stop seeing him.

At least we talked and at least I know where I stand (or kneel) now in our precarious relationship.

She is sleeping in the spare room

Last Friday morning Jayne fucked her Bull in our bed just before he left after an overnight stay in our home while I was away. She teased me in bed, about their XXX exploits together, while I rubbed her clit in the early evening when I returned; allowing me to taste the sloppy seconds as I licked her clit and sucked her cunt. We got up and I made an evening meal for us, before we returned to our bed for more XXX tales of how she loves her Bull's cock.

I had driven for four hours to get home, in heavy stop-start traffic, and had an early G&T before our first XXX story session with two more G&Ts while I made dinner. Then I drank the best part of a bottle of wine during dinner, followed by a beer when we relaxed for half an hour in front of the TV. Far too much alcohol, taken partly because of the stress of driving home and partly because of jealousy at her Bull fucking Jayne in our bed. I have done it before, drinking too much just before she has met him or immediately afterwards; each time misbehaving to the point where she has left our bedroom and slept on the large lounge sofa.

This time, during our second teasing session after she had fucked her Bull in our bed, I went too far. We had been trying to make love together as she teased me and my small cock was only semi-hard. I had slid it into her cunt and tried to fuck her but the combination of alcohol and tiredness meant I could not cum. She sucked my cock and tried her best to please me while she sat on my face, forcing me to drink the last remnants of his cum. Normally I would have ejaculated in seconds but this time I could not cum, neither of us getting an orgasm and both of us getting frustrated. In the end I got out my CB2000 chastity device (smaller than my CB3000) and put it on, saying some 'nasty' things to her that I cannot remember. Except that I remember calling her a 'slut' as she got up and left the bedroom to sleep all night on the lounge sofa.

The following morning (last Saturday) I woke with a splitting headache and she was not in the room with me. It dawned on me that I had said some awful things but I could not remember the detail. I got up and made a cup of tea, sitting at this computer in the study to write up her latest XXX exploits. I heard her coming up stairs and entering our bedroom to have a shower. It must have been strange and painful for her to have such extreme emotions in our bedroom in a matter of hours; lust and multiple orgasms with her Bull, followed by frustration, humiliation and insults with me.

She spent Saturday avoiding me, so that we were each in another part of the house all day, only talking briefly and politely when we ate or passed each other. She has talked to me about normal daily matters and yesterday (Sunday) we managed to watch TV in the evening while I massaged her toes. But each evening she has taken off her make up in our en-suite and then left me alone in our bed, last night saying she did not want to sleep with me any more.

I spent most of yesterday afternoon (Sunday) putting up a blackout roller blind and a curtain pole in the spare room, where she slept on Saturday night. We have only just cleared this room of storage boxes and she was preparing it as the guest bedroom. Now she is using it for herself, sleeping there again last night while I lay locked up in first my CB2000 and then my CB3000 (the CB2000 gave me severe ball ache and some pain) thinking of her (and her Bull).

I have started to have bisexual and gay thoughts, where I am taken by a man while Jayne watches then I am fucked hard by her with increasingly larger strap-ons until I am crying real tears of remorse. Punishment for not being 'nice to her' and, as she said last night, 'not showing her respect'. I don't know if I am bisexual but my cock (released from the CB3000) got hard and I had an orgasm thinking of being tied up and fucked first by a man, who came deep inside me; then by Jayne who hit me while she stretched my butt-hole, swopped her strap-on for her fist which she clenched inside me as she thrust it deep, and I imagined feeling my prostate juices flowing as she raped me and said what she thought of me.

We are both up in the house now, in separate parts of the building getting ready for work. We have not spoken this morning and she is already driving her car out of the garage.

I feel lonely and she probably does too.

Her Bull stayed overnight in our bed on Thursday 19th February 2009

I was right.

She did invite her Bull to stay overnight in our home, while I was away in a hotel providing half term entertainment in a London museum for one of our children (the other child is away on a school trip). At the same time (8pm) that we were sitting down in the hotel restaurant for our evening meal, she was opening the front door of our home to her Bull and inviting him in. While I was sending her texts giving her childcare updates, she was sitting on her Bull's cock and riding him. Eventually, one and a half hours after her Bull arrived she sent me a text saying "Good night :)" and did not respond to my immediate question "Are you with him?" because they were still only half way through their XXX session and she was enjoying him too much to send any more texts.
We returned home yesterday evening, weary after a long car journey in heavy traffic. She busied herself making sure our child was OK, giving him attention and seeing the tired child up to bed even though it was still early evening. That left me able to ask her what happened in our home while we were away. We went to our bedroom, locked the door and she told me everything while we lay in bed and I stroked her clit through her pants.

Her Bull had arrived at 8pm, parking his vehicle on our drive and she greeted him at the front door with her hair washed, her nails painted and her lipstick fresh and glossy. They kissed avidly in the hall and went into the kitchen where she poured him a glass of wine and offered to make him a meal. He declined the meal, saying he wanted to eat her pussy instead. They went upstairs to our bedroom and started to kiss and caress each other. She laughed when he slid the door bolt and locked them in the room. There was no-one else in the house but he wanted to make sure they were undisturbed. He then continued to kiss her and caress her, while she responded eagerly.

She told me that she could feel his cock was already hard when she rubbed it through his trousers. He wanted her and she told me it felt good being desired by him, in contrast to my limp cock and lack of need. His hands were roving all over her, touching her breasts, sliding up her stockings to stroke her thighs and to rub her clit. He positioned her so she was standing legs apart facing our long wall mirror with her hands touching the wall on either side of the mirror. He leaned her forward at an angle and spread her legs wider, so she was taking her weight on her arms and at the limits of balance in her high heels with widespread legs. Then he stood behind her, began kissing her neck and feeling her breasts through her dress. One of his hands moved lower and slid up her stocking-clad legs, feeling her bare thighs and butt. He moved his hand to her front and rubbed her clit gently through her thong. Then he pulled her thong to one side and felt her very wet cunt, pushing his finger into her and making her juices flow even more. He slid three fingers in and spread her lips, something that she adores him doing. Then he surprised her by unzipping his trousers and sliding his cock into her gaping cunt, past vaginal lips held wide by his fingers. He started to fuck her slowly from behind while watching her face in the mirror, staring directly into her eyes as she looked back at him. Both of them enjoying the feeling of his cock sliding in and out of her cunt, while his fingers continued to rub her clit and his other hand caressed her breasts. He started to fuck her harder, listening to her breathing increase and her gasps as she began to approach orgasm. His fingers rubbed her clit faster and he thrust his cock repeatedly deep into her cunt, bringing her to a wonderful orgasm as he watched the ecstasy on her face.

He can fuck her for a long time without cumming, matching his control with a large cock and athletic stamina so that Jayne gets enormous pleasure from him for hours at a time. This is in stark contrast to my small semi-limp cock and my lack of control, so that the few lovemaking sessions we have are short and dissatisfying for both of us. My little cock and almost immediate ejaculations must be very frustrating for her, often visible in the looks she gives me when I cum too early. Because of this I have bought her a large number of toys, which she uses in front of me to give her an orgasm and bring her relief. She also uses them when she is on her own at home during her day off each week, if she has not been able to meet with her Bull while I am work. Sometimes she takes her favourite toys (a smooth silver vibrator and a green cock shaped vibrator) with her when she meets her Bull, so he can watch while she plays with her toys during one of their long XXX sessions.

He had asked her to wear a white basque and white stockings for his visit to our home, which he admired when he moved her away from the wall mirror and undressed her. She was wearing a white lacy basque with matching white thong, white hold-up stockings and red high-heeled shoes. He could see these as he removed her dress, exposing her 'wedding day lingerie' for this his first overnight stay in our bed. Almost like taking a virginal bride, which has sent a strong warning message to me that he has fucked Jayne in our home and our bed is now shared with him.

She undressed him while he caressed her, knelt in front of him and started to lovingly suck his cock while he looked down at her. Jayne is very good at oral sex and she can easily give deep throat without any choking. Her Bull loves to watch the whole of his large cock disappear between her lips and down her throat, while she licks the sides of his shaft with her tongue. Sometimes he positions her on her back on the edge of the bed so that her head is hanging over the edge and he can fuck her throat, sliding the length of his cock into her repeatedly while he leans over and rubs her clit with his fingers. In our bedroom he watched as she knelt before him and gave him prolonged pleasure with her lips, tongue and throat.

He moved Jayne to the bed, where she lay on her back with her stocking-clad legs apart. Kneeling on the floor between her legs, he stroked her thighs and rubbed her clit through her white thong. Then he pulled the thong to one side and began to slowly insert his fingers into her glistening cunt. Jayne shaves herself daily so that when he licked her clit on our bed her pleasure button was surrounded by smooth flesh, which he could touch with his tongue before focussing once more on her clit. He inserted more fingers, curling them around inside her, pushing against her G Spot which she loves. He continued to explore her with his tongue and fingers, bringing her slowly but surely to a strong, noisy orgasm with her hands pulling his head towards her cunt to prolong the experience. She says that he is a fantastic oral lover and can give her multiple orgasms as part of extended foreplay.

Now he got on top of her and once more spread her cunt lips with his large cock, looking down at his virgin bride in white lingerie lying with welcoming legs spread wide for him on our bed. He fucked her hard and deep, taking her for himself and giving her a massive orgasm as she clung to him and kissed him. He had still not cum himself and was holding back so they could enjoy each other further.

When she had got her breath back, they got up from lying on top of the bedspread and got into our bed. He has fucked her once before in our bedroom, on top of the bed, but he has never enjoyed her in our bed. Strangely, she got in on the right of the bed (if lying face up) which is my side and he got into her side of the bed. This was a deliberate move on Jayne's part and she gave me a meaningful look when she told me about it last night, because when we first started to live together I insisted on sleeping on the right (to keep my sword arm free) even though she wanted to sleep on that side. So, the first time she took her Bull into bed with her she made sure he was put in his place and if they ever marry after this virginal 'wedding night' he will forever be sleeping on the left side of the bed.

Once settled into bed they cuddled and kissed like young lovers, touching each other and enjoying the moment. Jayne could feel her Bull's cock was very hard and throbbing with anticipation. He slid it into her while they lay together, slowly taking his bride while he looked at her face as she smiled lovingly at him and allowed him entry to her most private place. This was a moment I had anticipated with a mixture of dread and excitement, torn between the thrill of him fucking her in our bed and the very real risk of her preferring him in all aspects of her life (i.e. getting rid of me). Now they were enjoying their 'first time', with Jayne wearing white lingerie and her Bull knowing the significance of the moment.
They fucked slowly in this position for some time before he withdrew his cock and she took hold of it with her hands. She moved downwards and started to suck hungrily at his cock, slurping down his shaft, licking off her juices and feeling the ridged veins of his cock with her tongue. She took him deep inside her mouth and sucked hard on him while moving her head to and fro. He had his hands on her head, encouraging her to give him pleasure as she lay in a foetal position before him with her head attached to his cock. He loves her giving oral and can somehow stop himself from cumming, so that she can suck him for a long time during their XXX sessions.

She probably took him to the very brink of cumming because he asked her to play with her toys while he watched, presumably to allow him to calm down. She got out her silver vibrator, some gel lube and started to stroke the vibe over her clit, dipping it occasionally into her cunt. He likes to watch a lady masturbating, never having experienced it with his wife or anyone else. He is fascinated by this very private act played out in front of him as Jayne brings herself slowly but surely to orgasm as he watches. She has performed the act several times for him now and came enthusiastically for him on her vibrator in our bed, with her Bull gently massaging his cock while she approached and then had yet another orgasm.

His cock now even harder and eager to be inside her, he moved Jayne into a kneeling position and entered her from behind for a doggy-style fuck. He would have been able to look down at her very shapely butt enhanced by a tight white thong. His hands were pushing down on the small of her back to shape her body, arch her back and present her cunt to him. His cock slowly entered her and continued in until he had buried all of his large cock inside her welcoming cunt. Then her asked her use the vibrator and to play with her clit while he fucked her. She came again to the combined feeling of his cock filling her up and the vibe tingling on her clit. He slowed down to let her recover, then asked her to slide the quite large vibrator into her cunt alongside his large cock. Jayne did as requested and squeezed the vibrator past his cock so she was almost overwhelmed with the feeling of being spread very, very wide. When she was telling me the story and I first started to rub her clit in bed eight hours after her Bull had left, Jayne winced and said she was very sore because the vibrator had been pressing against her pelvic bones as her Bull fucked her alongside the vibe. The pain she felt at the time was masked by the absolute joy of being penetrated by both a large cock and vibrator. She came with uncontrolled, multiple spasms as he fucked her hard with the vibe in place and, amazingly, he managed not to cum even with the added pleasure of feeling the powerful vibrator all the way along his cock.

They fell forward onto the bed in near heavenly, combined, loving pleasure with Jayne's cunt still double penetrated as her Bull lay on top of her.
After a pause, she lay him on his back, straddled him and slowly lowered herself down onto his cock, spearing her cunt with his manhood. Then she started to ride him, increasing in pace as she watched him looking at her and felt his hands caressing her butt. Rhythmically, she rode him faster and faster, rotating her butt and the angle of his cock in her cunt, milking him with her gripping vaginal muscles. He loves this and she knew she could bring him to orgasm now as she saw the look of lust of his face. Jayne rode her Bull in our bed while I was not in the house, taking him for her own and making him cum after hours of jointly experienced pleasure. He exploded inside her as she brought herself to a simultaneous orgasm with him, feeling him thrusting upwards deep inside her as she felt her cunt walls gripping him and his cum filling her up.

They stayed in that position for a while, kissing and caressing as his hard well-used cock subsided and her satisfied cunt dripped a mixture of her juices and his cum onto his legs.

Eventually they parted and lay exhausted in each other arms, drifting off to deep sleep with wonderful memories of their first time together in our bed. Jayne has started to look forward to feeling his strong arms around her all night as she sleeps, which is another worrying sign for me that she may wish this arrangement to become permanent.

After many hours of XXX pleasure and a long recovery sleep, they woke up in our bed together with bodies so close they were touching from head to toe. He started to stroke her clit and her cunt juices began to flow once more. She could feel his hard cock pressing into her and she wanted to give him pleasure. Jayne moved position in a near 69, so she could suck his cock while he continued to give her clit plenty of attention. When she had teased him for a few minutes Jayne straddled her Bull again and rode him once more. This time he held back and did not cum yet, letting them both enjoy the feeling of her massaging his cock with her rotating hips and cunt.

He moved her into a spoons position and fucked Jayne energetically from behind as he caressed her breasts and rubbed her clit. She loves to be fucked by him from behind and he has said all the rear entry position are his favourites, allowing him to penetrate her very deeply as she thrusts herself backwards and presents herself for his cock. While he was still inside her he moved Jayne so that she was lying face down, lifted her up and placed a pillow under her hips to raise her cunt for him, starting to fuck her deep and hard right to up to and past the entrance to her womb. He pounded her in this vulnerable position as she had one orgasm after the other in a series of multi-orgasmic, explosive, gasping, screaming and bruising moments that she could tell me about later with utmost clarity. He had taken her to heaven and back, so she would remember him and be desperate for the next time they would meet for a XXX session.

After resting for a while with him still inside her, they moved to lay very close and cuddled each other, kissing and caressing to put off the moment of parting. Eventually they got up, showered and dressed, going downstairs hand in hand to kiss once more in the hall.

Her Bull kissed Jayne goodbye inside the house and she watched as he drove away, still able to feel where his cock had been and squeezing her cunt to keep his cum inside her for when I returned home. I could taste him as I licked Jayne while she told this story. To give me full sloppy seconds she got into a 69 position and sat on my face, allowing me to suck her cunt dry while she stroked my cock and occasionally sucked it hard with her expert mouth.

Jayne has grown accustomed to her Bull and I have got used to being her Cuckold, even dressing in her clothing while she is out shopping. I can just get a particularly wide pair of her high-heeled shoes on and some of her lingerie, often with a CB3000 chastity device visible through her lacy pants. Today, after she had got up, I played with one of her very large lifelike cock-shaped dildos as if it was a man in bed with me rubbing his cock against mine. I licked the dildo as if I was giving the man fellatio, although the dildo is so large I could only just get it into my mouth. I have also started seeking out and watching Bi and Gay videos, which get me very aroused. Am I turning Bisexual at the very time when Jayne will probably not need me any more in bed or maybe not require me to live in the home with her?

Meanwhile, Jayne had a fabulous time with her Bull again (now twice in February rather than the usual once per month) and there is still time next week for her to get a hat-trick.

I have added some pictures of Jayne wearing the same white lingerie that she wore for her Bull and playing with the same silver vibrator that she used in front of him (the large cock-shaped dildo is the one I rubbed against my cock and sucked after she had got up).

Hope you find this Blog interesting and informative, showing the ups and downs (literally) of the cuckold life-style.

In our bed tonight

There is the very real possibility that Jayne will have a XXX session in our house this evening and her Bull will spend the night with her in our bed.

It is half term and I am childcare for the week, with a trip to London today as part of the half term entertainment. I will be stopping over at a London hotel with one of our children (the other is away for the week on a school trip). So Jayne will be at home without us and will be free to entertain her Bull all evening and overnight.

I will not know for sure unless she sends me a text to confirm her plans. The first I may know of it could be the satisfied smile on her face when we return home tomorrow and the taste of his cum when I get sloppy seconds.

We tried making love last night and my small cock could not please her; both of us deciding to give up on my limp, dismal cock without either of us having an orgasm. This is in sharp contrast to her Bull, who is hard whenever they meet and can keep his large cock erect for hours at a time, while she has multiple orgasms in numerous positions with him until they finish their extended XXX sessions with simultaneous orgasms. No wonder she prefers her Bull in bed.

His cock inside her

His cock will have been inside her already tonight, in their hotel room 50 miles from our home. She sent me a text when she arrived and then she had a shower before preparing for his arrival. She said she had taken a choice of basque, to go with the high heeled shoes and seamed stockings. I will not know exactly what she is wearing for him right now until she returns tomorrow morning to allow me to lick her clit and suck his cum from her well used cunt.

I wonder how many times his cock has thrust deep inside her in the years we have known him and how many times it will thrust into her tonight and tomorrow morning. Possibly tens of thousands for the first and may hundreds for the latter. She loves his cock and I believe she is growing to love him.

All I can do is wait for her to return, with my small semi-hard cock constantly informing me of how inferior I am to him.