Rejected Cuckold

She did it last time and she has done it again tonight. After spending the evening having dinner with her Bull last night and then having a long XXX session with him, as well as sleeping overnight with him and getting fucked this morning, Jayne has rejected my tentative advances this evening. I spent a long time giving her attention and, as we settled down to watch an erotic TV programme, I tried to press my lips to her clit and she pushed me repeatedly away. In the end we have parted and I made a bath for her to relax in, allowing me to type this worried entry into my Blog.

I believe she now wants all her experiences with her Bull to be private, does not want me to refer to it afterwards and definitely does not want me to show how turned-on I am by the thought of her fucking her Bull in my absence.

My role as a Cuckold is to accept that she will meet with her Bull whenever she can and that she sees him as her boyfriend, with whom she is far more intimate (they talk and text daily) and for whom she likes to dress up and spend time with (not just intimately, they are now also long term friends). She would not give him up even if I asked.

Jayne did not come home last night.

I spent most of the night abusing myself with CBT and self bondage, once I realised that Jayne was not coming home. The thought of her curled up alongside her Bull, with his strong arms around her as she slept, kept me awake. I watched a XXX Felatio DVD while tied to the bed in my CB2000 (I cut the Birdlocked off after midnight after trying in vain to make myself cum while wearing it - The extra security was perfect up to the point where I was abusing myself too much while straining my balls to try to ejaculate).

Jayne is probably getting her morning fuck now, in the spoons position which he prefers after waking up. She loves his large wide cock and the way he can last for ages before cumming, giving her multiple orgasms to his one explosion inside her. She will not want me to touch her when she gets home; a combination of worn out and stretched cunt, aching limbs after being fucked at length in the anvil or spread position, tiredness and resentment that I do not give her the attention she needs (hence her meeting her Bull to be satisfied). She will probably go straight to work this morning from the hotel, so that she gets a rest during the day and can put off the moment when I finally show her some attention and try to suck his cum from her cunt.

I will be going to work late this morning, just in case she does come home before work.

Still waiting

She has been with her Bull for two and a half hours now. Long enough for dinner together and to return to the room they will have booked. She will have cum several times already and he will be holding back so he can cum inside her later after fucking her bareback in many positions for so long that her cunt will be sore when she gets home (if she gets home tonight that is).

I have tried to get out of my Birdlocked Chastity Device, to pleasure myself while thinking of them, but the extra security (permanent cable ties) has stopped me pulling my cock out of the device and is not allowing any movement inside the device, so I have no means of stroking my cock at all. All I can do is squeeze the Birdlocked with my fingers but I am only getting minimal sensation, whereas I know Jayne is fully enjoying her time with her Bull and will cum many times tonight with him.

Arrived and is meeting her Bull

She has just sent me a text "Arrived safely" at 19:36:36, which means she has been travelling for approx 90 minutes and is about half way to his place. She has just sent me another text saying exactly where she is and it is a hotel that they have met at before for overnight XXX sessions. I have asked her to let me know if she is staying overnight, so i am not worried about her.

And here I am with my small, limp cock locked up and unable to get an erection. While she is getting out of the car and greeting him with a kiss, both of them anticipating the long XXX desserts after their dinner together.

I was wrong

I was wrong.

I have noticed that her shaver is missing from the ensuite bathroom and her overnight/toiletries bag is missing. I sent her a text saying "Are you coming home tonight? Not sure how many Gin & Tonics to prepare.... XXX :-)" and she has replied at 17:53:37 saying "Still at work But planning to have dinner with ####".

I have asked her to let me know when she has arrived safely at their meeting location, which will give me some idea of where they are enjoying each other this evening but I still do not know if she is coming home tonight or not.

Have locked myself very securely into my Birdlocked Chastity Device, which is not allowing me to have an erection and which can be worn all night if she does not come home at all this evening. I will be desperate to suck his cum from her but she will probably go straight to work in the morning and I will have to wait all day to look at her cunt where his fingers will have explored and his tongue will have pleasured her several times before they have changed positions so that she can return the compliment by sucking and caressing his large cock (which she can deep throat to give him added plasure). They will fuck in numerous positions and he can last for a long time before finally exploding into her well used and eager cunt.

I can only wait in Cuckold unfulfilled, locked up torment and imagine what they will be doing to each other this evening after having a loving dinner together.

He fucked Jayne in our bedroom yesterday

Jayne has met her Bull again (the last time was only two weeks ago).

This time he came to our house just after 10:00 am and they had a XXX session in our bedroom for over three hours. All this was while I was at work. I sent her a text ("If U meet B today pls send me teasing text afterwards XXX) at 09:55 yesterday as I went into a meeting and I now understand why I got no response. She was waiting for him in our house, dressed in a beautiful black and pink lacy basque, black stockings and high heels. She would have been more focussed on anticipating his arrival, and the pleasure he gives her, than on any text sent by me and afterwards she either forgot to text me or decided not to tell me about his visit at all. I was out at a Bar-B-Q last night, so did not get home until late and she was drowsy in bed, so I did not get the chance to ask her if she had met him and I missed out on sloppy seconds. I saw the basque and stockings this morning drying in the airing cupboard, which was the only indication that he had fucked her yesterday and fill her eager cunt with his cum.

She has not let me touch her intimately this morning (with the implied threat that I was only making it worse). She has told me she prefers his larger cock to mine and once he has fucked her she does not need any attention from me.

So I am sat here at the computer, with my cock in a Birdlocked Mini chastity device, desperate to fuck her but knowing she will reject me again during the day if I try.

This is the life of a Cuckold.

Cuckold Anticipation

Jayne is in the bedroom next to our study, the room where I am typing this. I can hear her drying her hair which is one of the signs on her day off work that she is planning to meet her Bull. There has been no mention of a planned XXX meet, other than a conversation several days ago that her Bull has asked her to drive down to meet him this time, rather than them meet half way or in our house. She may not go because we have a new car and she is not used to driving it yet. Then again, his insistence when they talk in about an hours time (after she has dropped the children off to school) may overide her fears and trigger a swift dressing up in lingerie and stockings, followed by make up, high heeled shoes and jewellery. It only takes about 90 minutes to get to him, so she has ample time if she decides to go.
I will know nothing of her decision until I get home from work and check the washing for used lingerie and stockings, unless she sends me another text like the one two weeks ago ("Well and truly fucked"). As her Cuckold I will just have to wait with expectant anticipation.