Wimp Cuckold

We had a long talk in bed last night (I had managed to pursuade her to return from the spare room on Tuesday night and lay next to me after four nights without her). I thought as she lay there that I would try to please her and I gently stroked her butt and thighs as she lay facing away from me. This was an advance on Tuesday night where we had just cuddled and slept. However, when I tried to turn her over onto her back and said I wanted to touch her clit she got up and started to leave the room. All I had wanted to do was give her some pleasure but she said she had feared this would happen when she agreed to join me in bed again the previous night. In her head "our relationship is no longer valid" (to quote a text she sent me on Monday). She had already made the break and was now wondering how to support her children in the home or how she would be able to sell and move house in the current economic climate. She had managed to be polite and civil to me during the weekend and each evening at home but had drawn the line on any intimacy. It took me a long time and much pleading for me to pursuade her to return beside me in bed last night, so I could cuddle her and we could talk.

She did not hold back. She said that I was not the man she met, that I had changed and that she was not turned on by wimps. We tried not to mention her Bull after she said he should be 'set aside' and was not to become part of the discussion. It was clear in her head that she wants our 10 year relationship to end and she did not want to waste another decade on me. She did not like me looking at porn on this computer, mocked me by asking me if I had been tidying up my porn folders all day Saturday (actually I was keeping a low profile and suffering from a huge hangover, although I did confess to looking at porn sometimes during the day). She basically thinks that I do not respect her and she told me I called her a 'whore' on Friday night, as well as a 'slut'. Both of which I deeply regret saying.

The lingering memory I have of last night's difficult conversation is that she is no longer turned on by me in my present 'wimp' status and that she seemed very reluctant to talk about her Bull, let alone stop seeing him.

At least we talked and at least I know where I stand (or kneel) now in our precarious relationship.